Dear 100 Hour Board,
If you were asked to live polygamy today would you be able to?
-My Name Here
I would say yes if I was asked. Judging by how I already feel when I read what God told Emma in D&C 132, I think I would probably feel sad and worthless and that my feelings don't mean anything to Him and I would have a hard time summoning any genuine sense that He would take care of me. But I would do it.
I kind of feel bad that I would have so little trust in Him in this respect, but I was deeply shaken the first time I ever read D&C 132. It took years to undo the damage, and I can't honestly say that I think I would react any better now than I did then.
The reason why I would do it despite how terrible it would make me feel would be because of the story of God commanding Abraham to sacrifice Isaac, as well as Jesus suffering in Gethsemane and on the cross. I would ask for a ram in the thicket over and over and over, but if it didn't come, I think I would feel an obligation to be obedient.
So, yeah, I think I would be able to "live polygamy" in that I would be probably be able to eat and sleep and breathe. But I would feel dead inside if I was expected to be emotionally close to my husband (to "cleave", as D&C 132 says) because at that point I would feel like I don't matter as a person, only for my reproductive capacity and as a trophy to add to some man's exaltation cabinet. And if God asked me to fight the feeling of being dead inside, that would probably be too much. I would try, but at that point I'd probably give up and be angry.
I've given this a lot of thought, and I couldn't do it. The God I believe in would never force me to do something that is a complete violation of everything that's important to me, and polygamy is. So if polygamy were to be reinstated, and I were told to participate, that would be a sign to me that the God I love isn't the man I thought he was, and I don't think I would want to follow him anymore.
Dear My Name,
Frankly, I'm having a hard enough time marrying one woman, so all this polygamy business seems pretty far-removed from anything I'll ever have to deal with in life.
And, for what it's worth, I don't think that Heavenly Father is especially fond of polygamy. That he has instituted it, when necessary, is true, but then I read passages like Jacob 2 and He seems pretty darn serious when He says that men are only supposed to have one wife. Personally, I feel that when all is said and all is done (literally, at the end of Everything), there won't be any polygamous relationships, only monogamy.
If you've noticed that I still technically haven't given you an answer, it's because I have none.